Phase One, Concluded

         The IndieGoGo campaign ended at midnight, money has been earned. First off thank you to my investors. Those that gave to this just cause, so it's not really a 'just cause', but it's mine and I still appreciate it!! This will go a long way, going forward.

         Now we're going to get into the nitty gritty of the process. Shoot date is all but locked, crew is nearly locked and casting is fairly done. Attached is the first sketch from my costumer, Emily Laflin. She and I are friends and from the look of this sketch, both very much on the same page.

         The IndieGoGo donations are done, and that's just the first step! I'm very excited to keep reporting that sh*t's happening!!

Merry Christmas Eve-Eve!

      Christmas is a few days away. I'm trying to focus on the holiday right now just because other things seem very overwhelming. I don't get stressed over a holiday. I like to plan and plot, but I don't see the point in getting stressed over gift giving and eating great food. Granted, I don't have children, but still, to get upset and frothy over finding gifts and baking pies? It's not curing cancer, and it's not even close to brain surgery. My shoulder muscles are in knots over other things.

      My job concluded last week. The holiday break was always going to happen at this time, but instead of feeling 'YAY! Two weeks off!' it's more odd than joyful - well, I have two weeks off, then possibly more weeks off after that. Blech. Besides not having a regular paycheck, I'm not going to see my friends daily. That's really the bummer. The upside is, and what keeps me going when shit like this happens, this will end - the only thing that good times and bad times have in common is they both end. That sounds so downer, but if you think about it, it's kind of nice. This not having a regular job, it will end, I'll meet new people, I'll have new adventures I haven't even thought of yet. The 'bad times' is just the walk to the next door to open. Look how inspirational I am!

      The other thing is (the main thing is) - The Collector. I need a marketing push, or something. I'm not sure how to raise more funds, and I must. Just typing these words make my muscles tense up. I'm excited about talking to people about costume design and makeup for the fairies, but it's going to cost money. Even if everyone donates their time, I need to pay for materials. Erg! I tend to freeze when I get overwhelmed - like suddenly my brain ceases because I'm thinking of all the things that need to happen, I can't prioritize, the thoughts pour into my brain like a waterfall (and they're not creative thoughts, they're 'f*ck I need to do this' thoughts) it overflows and I become paralyzed. Next thing I know I'm playing with shiny keys on the floor. And that really isn't productive at all. So I focus on Christmas.

      I guess what I'm trying to say is, you know - give me money (said with a smirky smirky smile). Or give me ideas on how a can raise more. I'll take any and all suggestions, besides the spam that fills my Indie GoGo inbox. Apparently, that's the new Nigerian prince gimmick - I have dozens of PM's in my inbox all saying the same thing 'if you give me $5 I'll tell everyone in my feed to donate to your campaign', and they only have 70 connections. Seriously. Anyway, If anyone knows an inexpensive way to put the word out, I'll take it - or knows someone with extra cash that has always wanted to get into the filmmaking business, send them my way. Until then, I'll be wrapping gifts and playing with shiny keys.

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It's The Holiday Season

          Deck those halls! Roast that bird! Nog that egg....nog. It's time for pine smells, and the sound of bells, and somethings else that rhymes with shells.

          If you're feeling the need to find a place to donate funds, or if you're one of those people that donates for others as a gift, might I suggest something completely out of the ordinary. The Collector Indie GoGo campaign  I'm not going to save the whales with this, or shoe the shoeless - I'm just planning on making a movie. But, when was the last time you gave a few bucks, knowing that it would be making a dream into a reality?  That's exactly what it would be doing. No matter how small or large a donation, it would totally go into making this film. I know it's a non-conventional place to donate, but why be conventional?

          I won't always be pushing for donations all the time here. I won't. I just really need a kick to get this going!

         Check it out, and tell your friends! The Collector

Let's Smash The Champagne!

            The IndieGoGo campaign has been launched!... And I’m a little scared. It’s this weird combination of scared and excited and if I had more time, I’d think about it. But in all reality, it’s just what happens when you finally take a leap. It’s just been so long since I have.

            Even when I was filming the video for it, I wanted to vomit. I hadn’t been on camera since… ever.  Even then I was playing a character, not being all me the whole time. Fumbling and screwing up lines – as me! Basically, what I’m trying to say is it’s scary.

            Putting yourself out there for acceptance. Asking people to help on your own dream. Desperately needing to cast off those thoughts of ‘why would they’, ‘why would anyone care?’ That’s the past there, that’s the negative crap saying you aren’t good enough. Nah, those voices were always there, I just was too bull headed to listen. I need to remind myself of that.

            Why wouldn’t they? Why wouldn’t you? Why wouldn’t I help out? I would, I have, why wouldn’t someone else help out me? Why wouldn’t a bunch of someone else’s? That’s what I’m hoping for. Wait, no, I take that back – I don’t like ‘hope’, ‘hope’ pisses me off. That’s what I’m counting on. Yes, that’s better.

            So that’s it, for now. If you read this and you ask yourself ‘why would I?’, besides the response of ‘why not?’ let me add,  because this is going to be awesome, because then you’ll be a part of something awesome, and because you’d be helping me out and I’m not all that bad. Join me in something scary!

Link to the IndieGoGo page