Tuesday, November 14, 2017

I Know This Story

     I don't like being here again. Being out of a job, looking for employment. Besides being not fun it really does chip away at a person's mental state and belief in themselves. Seeing a perfect job and knowing it was made for you, but not getting an interview. Hearing, 'We'll get back to you next week' and not hearing anything about it, for going on three weeks. Then you question what you should do - do I email, do I call, should I wait, did they forget about me, did they get hit by a bus, don't they know that waiting kills? After an interview, and you send the usual thank you card and nothing in return. Nothing, just waiting. At the whim of everyone else's busy schedule, while you wait.

     I'm trying to do more than just be at the whim of someone else's plan. I do keep writing and planning, I just did a once over of the kitchen trying to figure out where an overhead camera could be mounted over the stovetop. I'll keep filming and submitting because I know what I want. There's a buzz in my ear that I've had ever since my contract went up and no one asked me to stay at my last job, 'You are much better than this'. I think it carries me through. My desires are right on the cusp of reality I need to push it to make it so. Sometimes the push confuses me.

     Does that sound odd? It's like the first few moments of the day I have to claw out of despondency and sometimes by then the view is cloudy - I know what I want, but I don't know what to do. So this blog is the beginning of me making some kind of a plan. I'm breaking down the wall of myself to get myself so I can be myself. Yup - this is all about me (if you came to read about something about you, come back later).

     I do understand that everything ends. TV shows, relationships, good times and bad times, everything ends. I'll sell a screenplay, or finish the short make an impression and someone will give me money to do what I want - or, someone will hire me as a creative producer, or a writer and then I'll do something else that I want. Either way, the tide will change and I'll get a job.

Monday, June 13, 2016

Gun Laws Need To Change

Finding a concise letter to send to my congressman expressing my view on the need for tighter gun control laws isn't the easiest to find online. So I pieced together something that I'm going to send and you can certainly use.
Links to the original letter can be found here

I don't like to go on and on when I'm trying to make a point. This might seem too abrupt, and I don't know about you - I'm sick and tired of this continuous conversation and the seemingly endless violence that is happening month to month anymore.

I have to believe the good guys are going to win, and if you are a loving human and feel as if you would be the person who would step up and step in if the situation presented itself, then you must believe that too. Thoughts and prayers have turned into BS and now is the time to do what we can do. Even if it's as simple as contacting your congressman.

Doing this is us, being the good guys.

Dear Congressman,

The time for reasonable restrictions on gun ownership is long overdue. We’ve already endured far too many mass shootings of innocent Americans. How many more of these tragedies must happen before our representatives in Washington do something about it?

Although President Obama's 2015 executive gun control actions are a step in the right direction, they should not be blocked nor upended. Especially the gun show loophole. The president’s entire list of proposed congressional and executive actions must be enacted. Continuing down the current path to more tragic executions in our schools, theaters and nightclubs can’t be tolerated. Reducing gun violence can be accomplished without jeopardizing the rights guaranteed by the Second Amendment.

One omission to the presidents executive order is a test taken to prove a person knows how to own a gun. Gun owners should bear the responsibility of demonstrating they’re worthy of carrying a firearm. This must include appropriate training at an approved firing range before granting of a four-year maximum state license. At a minimum, this training should include education about firearms and testing on the range. Testing should also be conducted at the time the license is renewed. We already require this of all automobile drivers, and no less should be expected of gun owners. On a similar token, all firearms must bear appropriate serial numbers, and all sales and transfers must be registered. Once again, we already require this of all automobiles, and should be doing the same for all firearms.

While the rights protected by the Second Amendment must be respected, it’s not a blank check. The Second Amendment was enacted in 1791, more than 200 years ago. Gun technology has advanced significantly during this time, but the laws and regulations have just not kept up. Guns are inherently dangerous in the hands of the wrong people, and those people must be prevented from buying and owning them. Included in that group are convicted felons, the mentally unstable, and anyone who can’t pass a thorough background investigation. A bright line must be drawn in the sand that those people can’t cross under any circumstances.

 Your strong support is encouraged and respectfully requested for expedited passage of his plans for reducing the escalating level of gun violence across our nation. It can’t happen soon enough.

the good guys.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Every Day

    I'm trying to keep a daily regime of writing everyday.  I read articles about writing, 'write everyday'. Elizabeth Gilbert wrote an article about her busy schedule on her book tour, 'write a half hour everyday'. If you are a writer, write everyday. Every. Day

    What happens when you don't have an idea? What do you write when you don't know what to write? How do you write everyday when, what you were writing suddenly loses all oomph? No, seriously, I'm asking. I was in the middle of a script and the floor fell through - honestly, it feels like it's gone. What do you do then?

    Do I take up something else and call it 'writing' - I don't think I can. I think that's cheating. Ever feel like something that goes beyond writers block? It just feels dismal and blank. Now I'm just trying not to fall in a great big hole of 'I'm not good enough'. The thing that I think most people go through. You know? That - okay I won a pretty well known contest, was it a fluke? Am I actually good enough? BLECH!!!

    If someone actually reads this blog, I'm taking advice. Seriously, any and all. If you are a creative sort - painter, writer, filmmaker, is there something you do when you've hit a wall? I'll try it. Let me know.


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Friday, May 15, 2015

I Can Talk About This

     So, lately to keep up the writing chops, I've been entering writing contests. Usually the kind that gives you perimeters (Genre, character, etc) and you have an amount of time to write, and turn it so many pages. I've done okay in the ones I've entered, I've always placed, but I've never moved on to the finals -- until now.

     I'm pretty excited about this one. Here's the Link and there's my name (6th one down). There are so many aspects to this contest that I like, the mentoring, the script gets developed as the contest goes on, I'm really looking forward to it.

     I haven't forgotten about The Collector. Sitting down with my VFX Sup we realized there's a ton more FX's than we originally thought. So we need to refigure the edit and shoot the green screen footage. Which also requires more money. Remind me of all this when I want to shoot another short with VFX in it - do it MINIMALLY!!   And make sure the VFX signs off on the costume used for the green screen shoot, before it gets made -- yup, there's too much green in it. Godamnit!!
Live, learn, more on.

     Anyway, I'll update on how the mentoring is going with the writing and how that contest susses out. Wish me luck!

Thursday, April 30, 2015

It's A Man's World?

A great article in the LA Weekly about statistics, being a woman in Hollywood and why the working numbers are so low.

How Hollywood Keeps Out Women