It took me
a couple of days to process that the show I had been working on this past year
had been cancelled. Honestly, I still don’t think it’s hit me completely.
Even watching the last YouTube Nation episode, I smiled and
laughed and thought to myself, this is great. Is – not was. We have so much fun
there – wait, these are now just memories??
YouTube
Nation was an anomaly. I have never worked in an office where we filmed every
day, posted a show every day (ok, maybe once or twice we didn’t), sometimes
more than one, and still did outlandish productions – did you see the Halloween
episode? Sheesh!! If it was a slow day, it was rare. Yes people got snippy, and
yes there were arguments, but I can honestly say, we all genuinely liked each
other. 40 of us, not a douche to be found.
I’m not
that great with goodbyes. Anyone who has known me for a while knows I like to
cut and run. I don’t say goodbyes, I’d rather do ‘see you again’s. If it’s
going to be a particularly hard send off, I’ll French exit while you’re at
work. Yes, it sounds harsh and heartless, but those that it happens to have
said they know – they know that it’s because I care and love them too much to
say goodbye. I’m freakin’ tearing up right now, I get emotional very easily. It
drives me crazy. Now, I have to say goodbye to 40 people? 40 people that have
become family, some I have spent 10 hours a day with, every working day, for
the past 15 months. Shit.
But, we
move on. Wrap up the office and ship things away. We file for unemployment, and
hope we don’t have to use it. We look
for new jobs. It’s going to suck, and I’m going on hoping that I’m going to
find something close to what I had there. Life actually does go on. I’ve got The
Collector to work on, that’s awesome and maybe I can wrangle some of these
people to come onboard. Either way, I’ll miss you, YouTube Nation family. I feel
I’ll see you all again.
